One of the things I do the most in my life is think, as I am sure a lot of other people do as well. I tend to think about the random life topics and really form an opinion on them. A topic that I have been thinking about lately is the topic of grace. God’s grace, the grace that I give to others, and the grace that I give to myself. It is one of those topics that has just been popping up everywhere in my life lately. It is especially funny because before this year, I really struggled with actually knowing what grace is.

Grace means God’s riches at Christ’s expense. Meaning that everything that we have is because of God’s grace. Because Jesus died on the cross for us, because he took our place, we can enjoy the luxuries of life. Because Jesus took our place on the cross, we have life! We were completely undeserving, yet God gave his grace and tells us that even though we don’t deserve anything, he is still going to provide for us, and even offer us second chances. That is grace.

It is important to remember the grace that God has given us when we are dealing with others. We need to be willing to extend grace towards. It is so important to realize that everyone makes mistakes and that always getting mad and taking it out on them or just being angry at them is not a healthy way to deal with these issues. Extending grace, giving a second chance to someone can be the most beneficial thing. To add on to extending grace to others, we need to be forgiving of ourselves also. It is something that I am constantly working on in my own life. Remembering that God made me the way that he thought was perfect is a good reminder that I need to not be so hard on myself. One test score or one bad day will not define who I am, I need to give myself a second chance. I need to offer myself some grace.

C’est la vie,

Kayla ❤


Jelly Bean Jar

This past weekend, I was at my grandparents house, and my grampy is getting ready to move. He was asking my sister and I to look through some of the things that he wouldn’t have space for in his apartment and to take what we wanted. We were looking through things and all of a sudden I found the thing that I wanted the most; the thing that reminds me the most of my grandparents house. I found the jelly bean jar!

Let me tell you about this jelly bean jar. It is a round, glass container that is clear, with the most awesome lid. The lid is kind of a cone shape with a little knob on the top as a handle. All my life, this jar had been placed on an end table right beside my grammie’s chair. It has always been filled with jelly beans. As far back as I can remember, every time I would go to their house, I would sneak over to the jelly bean jar and try to be quiet as I would lift the lid and hope no one caught me trying to get at the candy. Often times my parents and grandparents would cut me off from this jar, and many a dinner I spoiled by filling up on jelly beans beforehand.

The pink ones were my favourite as a young child, but as I grew up, the orange ones became my favourite. There was always an overabundance of green and black ones in the jar. My grammie used to handpick out every single black and green jelly bean that was in the bag that she bought before putting the rest of the colours into the jelly bean jar. Everyone that went over to their house always knew about the jelly bean jar and it was known to always help yourself.

Because of this, I plan on keeping jelly beans in this jar in my own house someday. I think that it was so fun of my grandparents to keep jelly beans on hand at all times and I would be honoured to keep up this family tradition. I’m so glad to have found the jelly bean jar, and I will be sure to let people know it’s history.

C’est la vie,

Kayla ❤

The closest picture I could find on the internet of what the jelly bean jar looks like. 🙂 …I don’t know why the picture is on its side 😛

My Dear Friends

To all of my wonderful friends,

I hope you realize just how precious you all are to me. I hope that I tell you often how much I appreciate you. I honestly have learned a lot from each of you. One of you taught me to sing as if nobody is listening, and to just have fun and be myself no matter what the people around us were saying. One of you taught me that friends don’t need to have known each other for years, sometimes it only takes a month and you know that they have your back. One of you taught me that working hard gets you far in life, you’ve never given up, and it is such an example to me to never stop trying. One of you knows how to make me laugh under all circumstances, whether I want to or not. One of you has been through literally everything with me, I know that you have taught me to be more independent. I could go on forever about what I have learned from each of my friends. I just wanted to say thank you for putting up with my craziness and for always being encouraging to me. I love each of you so much and I honestly don’t know what I would do without you all in my life!

C’est la vie,

Kayla ❤

(Thanks also for helping me procrastinate in my studying, haha)

Amanda Cook is awesome, and I have been listening to her lately thanks to a good friend of mine. It is the best calming music ever, and this song is one of my favourties. 🙂

Something That I Miss

As I am nearing the month mark of being in university (one week from today), the initial fun is starting to wear down a little bit and I am starting to miss some things. This is going to be a really funny phrase, but the thing I miss the most currently is being around kids. Last year, I was able to enjoy the presence of kids almost everyday, and it made my heart happy.

Every afternoon, for a full semester, I got to go to a local elementary school and help out in two different grade three classrooms. I learned so much from those kids. The first being that I do not necessarily want to be a teacher. I do not think that I have the strength to know that I am in charge of close to 20 kids’ learning and education. Teaching is hard work! Something else that I have learned is that no matter what kind of day you’re having when you enter the classroom, you always leave happy, at least I did. There is one little girl in particular that stands out to me. Every single day before she would leave the classroom, she would look up at me with her cute little eyes and say “Rawr,” and to her, this meant I love you (she told me that’s what it meant one day), and then she would give me a hug. It was the sweetest thing ever. Knowing her family situation really made me aware that kids just want to be loved, and she was loved. Watching the progress that the kids made throughout a semester was so amazing! As a student, you don’t really think about how much you’re actually progressing throughout the year, but when you are able to take a different perspective as an educator, wow, it is actually amazing how much the improvement is evident.

I also got the pleasure of being around preschool aged kids as I was in an Early Childhood Services course at my high school. Once a month, a daycare would come into the school and it was a blast! The ECS class planned all of the activities for the kids, and it was such a unique course in the aspect that we were working together to create a program. I had the privilege of working with a little boy that wore a hearing aid, (Fun fact: I wear one myself). It was really special to be able to share this commonality with the child and just be able to relate with him.

Something that I have been involved in at my church was the children’s ministry. For around 6 years, I was a leader to kids aged three to grade five. I watched the program flourish and I have seen it at some trying times. The number of kids didn’t matter too much to me, what mattered and matters the most is the fact that these kids have the opportunity to hear about Jesus. Every single one of my kiddos is precious to me. I have seen kids grow and mature into teenagers. I have seen the kindness that children are capable of in so many ways. They never failed to make me smile or laugh, and I think about them often. These children are always full of surprises, and their spontaneity is one of my favourite qualities that they possess. I love my kids!

This post was a little walk down memory lane for me, and it saddens me that I do not get to have as many interactions with kids this year as I have had in the past, but maybe it will just help me to treasure the moments that I will get to have! ❤

C’est la vie,

Kayla ❤

🙂 This song has been stuck in my head forever now! I love it, haha!